Thursday, January 21, 2010


Breathe. Only four more full days of high-school and you're running start bound. You can do this. Finish your essay, copy the notes, keep your eyes on the prize.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Oh my.

Isn't it amazing how so much can change in just one week? Just to throw that out there... Many thoughts occur in a week. Many, many thoughts do.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

Love is eating your favorite food for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

It's possible to fall into, but to fall out of is an entirely different story. To get out of where you've been, and what you've gotten yourself into takes time, patience, and diligence. You have to climb. But when you fall, it's easy, effortless, and it takes no time at all. It just happens. Just a spark and you're off. (:

I've learned this through many tears, difficulty and struggle. But honestly, i'm glad i've been through what I have. It's made my relationships stronger. I know more about myself. I've gotten my priorities straightened out, and i've learned what's important to me. Semper fi.

After tonight, much of my confusion has been replaced by the feeling of wholeness, and realness. As hard as it is, I know it's true. But with patience, love, passion, and faithfulness, we'll get through.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I just wanna be OK.

Isn't that the truth? I felt liel i'm healing. Finally. After those long months of feeling like a train wreck coated in molten lava, swallowed by a giant cat, and spit out into acid- I started to really feel... ok (: Good. At peace. HAPPY.

Then HE pops back into my life with a spontaneous, "I miss you. i wished that we could go back to the way we were before i was so foolish and lost the best thing that i had ever had! i just let you slip through my fingers! and i feel down right awful for what i put you through! and well that is my wish i could go back and slap myself and don't let something so amazing go!" ETC ETC ETC.

WHY!? Of all the opportunities he could have taken, he chooses now when i'm starting to be happy.

But you know what? I'm sick of this. I DIDN'T SLIP THROUGH HIS FINGERS. He had me. I never thought about leaving him. No pain could compare to that feeling of brokenheartedness. I don't want to go through it again. And then last night he tells me that he always cared for me but he had to break it off because it would hurt more later when he was leaving for the marines. Okay.... so he was already knowing that it wasn't going to work and it was inevitable. He was going to dump me.


I can't do it. I won't walk into the inevitable trap of heartbreak.

There are much better boys.

Right now, i'm perfectly content with Him (:

Monday, January 11, 2010


This blog is the perfect example of what I don't want to be doing. Procrastinating. But in this case, I procrastinated so much that i actually missed my deadline. By about ten minutes. UGH! I should be kicking myself. Do you want to be a failure? Shift yourself into drive and GO! Work! And SUCCEED! You can't expect to get anywhere and be happy if you spend your hours conversing on facebook. Save that for a weekend where you left yourself free time, not where you swamped yourself in work that your procrastinated off. Bravo. DON'T DO IT AGAIN.
Goal for next month; FOLLOW THROUGH. One blog, every day, on time.
PS: Girl, you're in college. This is a permanent transcript. You want to get into Whitworth, become a nurse and help people? A "C" in Math 97 isn't going to help you get to that goal. Get off your duff and work.

Saturday, January 9, 2010


Wash your hands, finish your spanish homework, steer clear of chemicals, use crosswalks, pin back your hair, annunciate, drink more water, you'll have less headaches if you keep your room tidy. And, stop procrastinating. You're only hurting yourself.

Friday, January 8, 2010

time to play some catch up!

Well, well, well. It's be quite some time since I posted, and honestly, I can't ever remember what my last blog was about. So if somethings I say are redundant, i'm sorry! I beg your forgiveness! Who's forgiveness i'm begging for, i'm not entirely sure. Forgive me, Nicole- my faithful reader? Haha.
So, it's 2010. Wow. One more year until graduation. One more year until adulthood. Two more years until the alleged and of the world. Ha, for the record, I really don't think that's going to happen. But, we'll save that rant for another blog :)
Today I just want to "catch up". A lot has happened! For one, I bought a beautiful HP laptop with Window's 7. It's a lot of fun to type and blog on! Also, Two days ago it was my first official day of college. I'm taking class online for winter quarter, and I very much so like the interface of the website. I'll let you know if i change my opinion as the quarter drags on (: Ah, schooling. It's strange to think that i'm over halfway finished with my high school career.

Oh! and it was my birthday on the fifth (: Very exciting!

-wofts the air- Spaghetti?! I'm going to take that as my cue to head out. (: Au revoir!