Monday, November 30, 2009

Spongebob Analysispants: The Essay

Okay world. Here's a peek into my noggin on how it works when I hit a school setting. I'm being absolutely serious when I say this is NOT some of my best work. But if you really want to read it- haha, be my guest.
At first glance, a spongy exterior and an effervescent demeanor may be all that you’ll “absorb”, but after observing further you’ll soon see that there’s a lot of depth to Spongebob and his aquatic pals. Although the characters live in the same quaint town of Bikini Bottom, they all have different ambitions and backgrounds. Their absurdities make them the characters we as Nickelodeon viewers love.
Money, cash, “ka-ching”, dollar bills and wealth. Sense a theme here? For Mr. Krabs money is always on his mind. He’s a hard worker, “crusty” business owner, and father to his whale daughter, Pearl. Why is he so money hungry? It’s certainly not because of financial instability. He lives comfortably in a luxurious anchor-shaped complex. To make matters more confusing, he doesn’t splurge. Ever. You would think that “hey, maybe he’s saving for something more grand!” but in all reality, he strives to reach the big buck. He isn’t satisfied until he’s exceeded the rest. In one episode, his hard work finally pays off when he gets his one-millionth dollar. In celebration he takes his “Krusty Crew” employees out on a pleasant boating trip that turns terribly wrong. His prized dollar is eaten by a shark, so he proceeds to dive in- resulting in the loss of half of his body. He doesn’t seem to mind because at least he has his dollar. Overall, Mr. Krabs is the epitome of penny-pinchers.
It doesn’t take much to see what Mister Squidward Tentacles is all about. On the surface he seems like the typical rude, reclusive neighbor. He hates to be bothered by any of Spongebob and his buddies’ shenanigans. As they continue to pester him into participating in games like bubble-blowing or tag, his temper begins to rise, boil, and more often than not, erupt. But is he really all that perturbed? Or would he rather the latter of joining in on all the fun and games? When you delve into the mind of Squidward Tentacles, you’d find a vast variety of thoughts about music, literature, the arts, clarinet, and all things “sophisticated and profound”. Squidward values success. More importantly, he values recognition. He practices day in and day out on his clarinet to participate in shows to gain respect from his peers. Sadly, more often than not his spotlight is yanked away from either his rival, Squillium Fancyson, or none other than his goofball neighbors, Spongebob and Patrick. But despite all of his failures, he never gives up. Implanted in his mind are small tasks and goals he strives to complete to reach the top. Perhaps that’s why he still maintains a job at the Krusty Krab, working the register at ungodly hours. Perhaps that’s why he still puts up with his insane neighbors. He could move away if he wanted to; in fact, he’s tried a couple of times, but he still always manages to come back. Why? Because they give him recognition. They acknowledge his existence. Spongebob praises him on his clarinet playing when nobody else will. It’s only natural after being beaten and criticized so many times that you’d put up a front and say you’re not interested.
There is so much more to the overly-starched, square pants wearing, buck-toothed sponge than meets the eye. He’s a genuine, give-it-your-all, kind of guy. Outside of the work place, he maintains the giggly, bubble-blowing, child-like character we all know any love, but at work he takes full responsibility for the task at hand. Even after working as a fry cook for Mr. Krabs at the Krusty Krab for years on end, he never complains, and he never gives less than his best effort for every meal. He has amazing pride in his work. Why? Looking at the way his parents and grandma genuinely care about him, you can tell that he strives to be just like them. In one episode it shows Spongebob visiting his grandmother, who, when they arrive, presents him with a sweater that she knitted “with love in every stitch”. So when someone orders a Krabby Patty, he puts his heart and soul into his food, like the love his grandmother pours out in her knitting. The reason behind the success of the hamburger joint is certainly not from the penny-pinching manager, but because of the unfaltering fry cook. You can tell that he truly cares about what he does because his mood affects the taste and quality of his product. During one episode, his pet seahorse was banished from the K.K. kitchen, which sent the young sponge chef into a spiral of tears and depression. The customers could tell from his cooking that something was wrong. They could taste the tears. But on a happy day, the look in the eyes of the customer as they take their first bite, ripping into the burger with their canines, savoring every intoxicating flavor from the secret sauce must be what makes it all worth the hard work.

Sunday, November 8, 2009


I know guys who would do anything for their girl. They talk about her like she's the most amazing thing on the face of this planet. Songs are written by guys who say things like "i don't want to lose you", and "I can't stand to let you go". I could look at this pathetically, "sure, guys are like that- but WHY wasn't HE like that for ME?" or I could look at like "Wow. This is inspiring. Some gentlemen really do care about their girls. One day I hope to find someone who'll feel that way about me." I choose to look at the second option. By looking at the second, it's so much easier to let go and move forward with my life. I could continue to spend days crying over him, but what good will that do? I enjoy life so much more when i'm happier. Redundant much? Well it's true. Plus, Christ wants me to be happy. He's opened so many amazing opportunies in my life that i need to be thankful for. That I AM thankful for. I think Christ has used to this opportunity to help me grow closer to him. I can feel him working in my life again. Sure, i was really sad, but right now i'm filled with so much joy all because of Him. (: It's not going to be an overnight recovery, it's going to take some time. But you know what they say about when you break a bone? It heals back stronger. I think it works just the same for your heart. (:

Sunday, October 25, 2009

No God, No Peace.

Right now I'm struggling, as everyone will struggle at one point in their life, with the subject of purity. God says this way, and the world says another. When we look at it like this, it's easy to see the clear, right thing to do. But is it as easy as it sounds? No. No, of course not. It's so much easier to feed into our instincts and find ways to make it okay. "Oh, it's just a sin. God's going to forgive me. I have protection. It'll feel great. We've been together for so long. I love him. He loves me. Everyone else does it...." and the list goes on. When you take the leap to do this- this becomes okay to do. Then once you do this, you can do that- and since you've done that, you might as well start doing this. WHEN DOES THIS STOP? Well, only when you can no longer go further. Once you've reached the point of no return. Is it worth it? I've weighed my options and I can find a thousand reasons NOT to do it than I can find to. But then why do I still desire. Why?
It's as simple as this. "No God, No Peace. Know God, Know Peace." The moment I started falling away from Him, I started sinking into a dark abyss. THE dark abyss. The bad habits, vile thoughts, pessimism- the very opposite of what i used to be. Where did my morels go? Right down the drain. I've been consumed and I want to change. I want to change now. I can't stand this constant feeling that I have. It's like I have a rock in my stomach, I have a swirling headache, and I constantly want to cry. I don't want to be like this. I can't be like that. It's tearing myself and my friends apart, and i'm sure He isn't happy with my behavior. So i vow, you will see a difference, because this is not who i want to be. I want to be someone respectable. Someone with the courage to say no. And the courage to hold myself with the dignity that causes heads to turn and say, "Hey, what does she have that I don't? and I want to be the one to turn around and say, "He's my love, my light, and my God. He's there for you too, if you're willing to let him fully into your heart like I have." Because honestly, I think it's worth it. I have the choice: A little momentary pleasure, or eternal pleasure with someone I know will always love me, and I know what I want to choose, but again, it won't be easy.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

I wish this could be a happy song But my happiness disappeared the moment you were gone

i had a dream about her again. no, that should be rephrased. i had a nightmare. she comes back, I see her, time has changed her a way that makes her more mature, but it's clear to see she's still the same girl- except... i've been snubbed. cast aside. forgotten. my worst nightmare.
i don't want her to forget about me. i haven't forgotten for one second about her. thinking about it genuinely breaks my heart. i'm not sure how to put this all in words, but i miss her. i miss her so much. she was my best friend in the universe. one moment she calls me with so much excitement and joy to be traveling and following her dreams, promising to call me back with details- and the next she's gone. it's like.... she died. no communication. just a slight reassuring that she's doing okay. i want to contact her. but i can't. i've asked.. but that was so long ago. maybe they'd let me now, but i don't want to open old wounds. molly :( i love you so much. i know you probably won't read this , but know that I love you. i really genuinely do. i want you to know that i'm praying for you. everyday. i'm so proud of your every accomplishment. when you get back, please.. let's catch up. tea party? (: ah, i'm at a loss for words. i... miss you. :( how fitting is it that my pandora radio just started playing missing you by jem?

I'll always be thankful
for the time we had
We were blessed
I should celebrate
but I feel too sad
All the wonderful memories
just make me fall apart
And it feels like somebody's
stabbed me in my heart

Friday, October 16, 2009

I have to admit, life sure isn't easy. But with people you care about and trust by your side, it's a lot less difficult. Especially when those people bring out the better in you. When they have the optimism to the see the horizon on the darkest days. The people with their heads screwed tight, but with enough slack to allow imagination to seep through.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Half Blood Prince

I have to apologize quickly. I haven't written a blog in forever, I just keep procrastinating, and procrastinating.
I haven't given up on the beautiful Hatmione i was working on, but I might have to scrap it and start fresh because 'the cat' is evil.
Last night I went to the premiere of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I'm so glad it finally happened and the hype for the release is over. I was dying of impatience. I had been counting down for months! Well, my dear friend Louisa and I dressed up for the premiere (the only ones too, so we got some weird looks haha) and it was so much fun. I went as, well just a Gryffindor student but people thought i looked a tad like Hermione (Score!! lol) and Lou Lou dressed up as Tonks! She used temporary dye. I don't have pictures of her, YET! But, here's me dressed up and ready for the premiere!

My thoughts on the film:
The movie as a movie was wonderful. It was thrilling, tear jerking, happy, silly, I laughed, I cried- etc. It was all I wanted and more.
As for living up to the wonder that the book is- well, i'd give it about a "C" grade level. They missed so many details that were key! They added scenes that didn't need to be there, and they just messed around with it too much.
But- you know, I still loved it. You can see that the actors have really grown. They were phenomenal in the movie compared to when they started as little 9-11 year olds. Emma Watson made me cry with her portrayal of Hermione's heartbreak and jealousy :(
Anyways, I can't wait for DH Part one!! :)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Vent #2

I don't care how irritating they are, stubborn, pigheaded or "b****y" they act- When I am a mother I will NEVER curse AT my children. Ever. It's disgusting, volatile, vulgar, and obscene.

Anyways. I'm off to escape and see my best friend, get help with knitting in the round at Wooly Bully, and ESCAPE.

Pardon my mini rant.

Pandora Internet Radio

Is amazing. Natalie uses it much and often, and I finally got around to trying it. It's amazing. And free. It chooses songs that it thinks you would like to listen to based on an artist, song name, or composer. It's AMAZING! Have I said that already? AND FREE! Ahh, just check it out.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Eventful, just the way I like it (:

Today I slept in-ish. I stayed up till 3am reading, but I slept till 9:30am which was nice, but I wish I was up earlier. I got a phone call around 9am from a hotel in town that I applied for a job at. My brother took a message and a shortly returned their call. They had me come into town within the hour- and after a short interview (Which consisted of, oh your a cheerleader? You knit? What are you working on? You're a christian!? I think you might know my daughter...) I was hired and fitted for a uniform and I started work on the golf course immediately! I'm already down for working 13 days this month along with my other job at the bed and breakfast, I'll be rolling in dough! (: Only 6 people came for golf, so the 4 hours I was there- it was very slow. My best friend and co worker Natalie, who trained me today, and I had a lot of fun taking pictures to document this momentous occasion.

After work was our bible study- then I was off to Woolly Bully Yarns. Seriously, if anyone ever travels to Leavenworth, WA- you have to stop by there. It's the cutest shop with the friendliest of staff. I showed Mary the Hermione hat pattern, and she was so sweet. She helped me find the appropriate yarn, needles, etc. and now I'm actually going to take private lessons so she can help me get started. I promise, I'm actually serious about this. I really want to become an accomplished knitter. I have a feeling I'm not going to get the hat done by the premiere- but at least it's a start. Plus- i already have this lovely grey sweater, Gryffindor Crest Necklace, whimsical black skirt, and I'm going to pick up a red lace camisole at Maurice's. Even if I don't have the hat finished, I'll look perfectly 'bewitching' in Gryffindor colors! (: I'll post pictures. If I wanted to be extremely HP, I do have a cloak with the Gryffindor crest. (:

Monday, June 29, 2009


"One night, a bunch of my friends and I were sitting on the ground, listening to a jazz concert. This random little boy, about 3 or 4 years old, comes up to my very critical friend and hands her a flower. She was smiling and happy for the rest of the night and couldn't stop mentioning the random little boy who was the first to ever give her flowers." -

I just had to share this. It made me smile. There is so much love in this world (:

This is a picture of these two adorable 2 year olds my incredible buddy Kenzie and I saw dancing in Disney Land. I just had to take a picture. There were two girls dressed up as Cinderella and Belle, and this little boy came up to each of them, bowed and then took one girl at a time and kissed their hand and danced. It was the most precious moment I have ever encountered.

can you say, scrumptious?

Organic cherries from a local orchard! (:

Oh, and my current knitting! Do I Know what it will be? Nah, we'll just wait and see.

I really like the yarn though. It took some getting used to, but the created fabric is sooo soft.

I'm effervescing with a hint of disappointment

Today started out wonderful. I was able to sleep in, shower off, and eat breakfast with the wonderful thought of "Ah, Monday. Monday = Payday. Ch-Ching". This thought suddenly faded to cascading tears as my little brother came down with his beloved ferret nestled in his arms. 'Ferroh' has been fighting cancer for the last few months, and they didn't give him much time to live. Garrett, my brother, said today was the day Ferroh needed to be put down. He was suffering too much for too long.
We arrived into town, brought Ferroh to the vet and said our goodbyes. :( His wife died a couple of months prior, so I think he'll be so much happier- out of his sickness and with the one he loves.
After we got the call that we could pick him up, I decided to stay in town longer with my glorious $177 paycheck. I walked by the heaven that is Wooly Bully Yarns- and to my dismay, it was closed. They closed early. Oh well, it opens at ten AM tomorrow, and you can guess where i'll be. I found the most b-e-a-utiful pattern for a Hermione Granger hat on Ravelry. I can wait to Cast On and try it! Only thing is, I need yarn new needles. So tomorrow, i'll be there with my paycheck.
Right now i'm at the library killing time till i'm picked up at 5. If WB yarns were open, i'd be there staring, drooling, adoring for hours. But My books that I ordered are in- "The Great Perhaps" by Joe Meno, and "The Three Musketeers" by Alexandre Dumas. I'll tell you how I liked them when i finish. I found the first mentioned on the Indie Next List. Hope it's a good read! Oh I love books :)
Here's some pictures to end this novel...

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Before I forget...

I went to Sakura Con 2009 in Seattle this year! My first ever Anime Convention. It was ridiculously amazing, and I can't wait for next year! It was in April, but I forgot to post pictures- so here we go!
I went as Nurse Joy from the Hit Anime/Manga/Video Game Pokemon (DARKER RED HEADED Nurse)

It's a new dawn, a new day-

It's a new life. Wonderful words by Muse.

Ahh, anyways. So step one of my 'journey' is complete. I located and put my knitting in a location I will be forced to look at every morning, everyday. There is no escaping it now. If I want to get better at something, it's inevitable; I need to practice. Am I afraid of practice? I think somewhere in the back of my mind its telling me that If I practice doing this thing- I can't learn this or this. I love learning new things. I'm hoping I can find that same hype and drive to learn new concepts, new things, on my knit journey. I hope, so we'll see.

This morning Andy, my best guy friend ever, is coming over to chill. He's the kind of guy that I just don't even bother getting dressed and dolled up for. We sit around, laugh about gorey movies, play Super Smash, trade pokemon cards, and get dirty in mud, dirt, whatever it's around. We're little kids when we hang out. His blissful, youthful nature is such a relief as we peer over the wall into adultland. Man, i can't wait to see what adventures we'll have in store today. First off, he's rather impressed that I 1.) Loaded up World of Warcraft on my computer, finally. and 2.) I'm playing an Undead instead of a Blood Elf. Secretly, ahh, i want to play on a blood elf. I really like the quests at the beginning, but oh well! Haha.

My blog is looking a little... lackluster. Here's a recently taken photo to spice things up! ...and to justify that my knit talk isn't total bull.


This is a confusing, hard topic for me. I want so much to be successful. I don't see myself as a millionaire, or a Grammy winning actress, just successful. I have a passion for learning, and I've always thought i could learn it all- but looking at all i do, i do things half a**ed. Knitting, jazz, drawing, sewing, piano, writing, bass etc. I'm a starter- not a finisher. I despise this. I need goals. I need to choose one thing, stick with it and excel. I'm thinking that thing will be knitting- but for now, i'll go with the flow and keep you updated. I'm exhausted. -yahn-

"I do love knitting patterns"~Albus Dumbledore HBP

Makes me think, Harry Potter HBP, the movie is almost here. i think i'll make something to wear for the premiere! GOALS! (:

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Times Change, So do we

I used to despise my mother's choice in clothing. Looking back, I'm not sure that it was the choice in clothing at all, or rather that she chose it, I did not, and I being the '8-13 year old big girl' I had to make the choices or it could not be considered cool. Now, I love, value, and respect my mother's opinion in my clothing choices. She knows what I like. We have completely different tastes in the way we dress, but she can pick out and find the most inexpensive, wonderful things. Such as this fantastic sundress she bought me today. It's long, purple, flowery and flowing. Tomorrow I'm going on a dinner picnic with my dear friend Louisa, who adores photography. So I'm sure I'll be posting pictures, and yes I shall wear the dress of course! It's a perfect picnic dress. Now I just need to find a new picnic basket.... Hmm.

Friday, June 12, 2009

oh summer time.

A lot has gone down in the last few days. My finals are over and I aced all of the finals I didn't study for, and I got a D+ on the final I studied literally over eight hours for. At least my overall grade wasn't completely suckish (B- in English, FTW).

If you knew my English teacher- you would understand the puddle of happy tears I stood in when I checked my final grades. She is hands down the smartest woman i have ever met. But still the MOST INSANE. She likes Cinnamon bears though, thank gosh.

I hung out with a couple of good girlfriends for the first night of summer break. We played Risk, watched Troy, jumped on the trampoline, and took a plethora of pictures. Here's a glimpse of the night; (:

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Coming to a close

Seven and a half more days until;
more hours at work, heightened responsibility.
more hours to sleep in, stay up late, and exhaust myself irresponsibly.
more time to see the ones I care about, without the stress of english deadlines.
more opportunities during the week to climb trees and unleash creativity.
Enthusiastic, Effervescent, Excitement.
I. Can't. Wait.

Monday, May 18, 2009


Vent #1

I want to say what is on my mind without really saying what I think- as not to offend.
Why?!!?! I don't see a point.
No benefits.
No matter how many ways you spin it, it's unattractive and I can't find a way to justify it.
Ending point;
EW. edhauiwhduiwahuidwad.

This helped.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Well, this Stinks

I think I am allergic to perfume. Maybe a specific ingredient in the perfume or the whole thing- but whatever it is, I get headaches, my nose itches and I get sniffles, I feel a pain in my chest like it's hard to breathe a little- and well, I don't like it, obviously. I'm hoping It's just an ingredient that's shared between the three perfumes I have, and not a vital ingredient for most perfumes, because I really like smelling good :)

Monday, May 11, 2009

This right here...

is the most delicious sandwich created by mankind.
Peanut Butter and Dill Pickle on White Bread.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

mother :)

Mother's Day! It's beautiful outside, the sun is shining, and my siblings and I have pitched in so that my mom can relax and garden all day. For breakfast Chase and Garrett made Waffles, and for lunch my sister Taylor and I prepared a tea party! I think for dinner I'll cook up a spaghetti squash from our garden. Mother really likes those and I completely understand; so scrumptious!
Here's pictures from the tea party this afternoon :)


Oh Lake Chelan. What a seriously wonderful way to relax after marching for an hour. I sat on this hill for at least an hour, ate Focaccia bread and drank Agua. Oh and this afternoon occurred yesterday. I got home very late after the play, so I was unable to blog about it!

The play. I'll have to post pictures later when I acquire some, but it went wonderful. Much better than opening night! I overcame my nerves, and went up on stage with much more body language and more vivid facial expressions. I felt on fire! :)

Friday, May 8, 2009

Sunshine and Performances

The sun is out and it's making me very happy. This is a very, very good sign!
Tonight is our first performance of Harvey. I love theater, but it's been a long time since I've acted, so I am very nervous. But I can't wait for the adrenaline to kick in. Any little bit of good luck is going to be well loved and appreciated. So thank you sun for shining!

Here's some pictures I took today :) Oh! And those are my wonderful chickens, by the way :) Aren't they adorable?

Clean Start

Here's to a fresh clean start! A new blog, blank page, fresh scent- if blogs had scents that is. If mine were to have a scent, it would be a mixture of peaches, fresh air, green tea, and laundry detergent. Every scent would be distinct but all together in a jumbled but deliciously splendid way :)

Princess Victory? That sounds rather conceited, doesn't it? My idea behind my URL was that my name, Nicole, means "Victory of the People", hence the victory portion. The Princess portion comes from the fact that I am not in any way shape of form royalty, or ever will be (Even though William is quite dreamy... it could work!), but I still dream sometimes that I live in a medieval fairytale times with gorgeous gowns etc etc. Though I love to dress up on occasion- I'm a bit more of a tom boy. I'd rather get suited up and stab a dragon in the jugular.